When my hiatus gets longer and more frequent, it indicates the ending of my blog. So far, since I've started blogging in sec 1, none of my blogs lasted more than a year and this won't be an exception. So here's my final ramblings before I pull the plug. No sophistry, just random stuff. I'm sick, both body and mind.

Looking back, most of my expectations for 2008 back when I was in sec 4 were met, but many in the wrong way. Events today cleared my doubts about stuff and that, in a way, isn't something I was hoping for. I don't feel a connection anymore. "To whom?" some may wonder and start gossiping about it. No one in particular, but everyone in general.

Since kindergarten, I've placed family and friends as the greatest contributors to happiness in my life, and I still believe in it, just in a difference situation.

If there is something I hate, whether it's in myself or in others, it's indecisiveness if there's such a term. Some things should be left unsaid, so I'll keep my mouth shut.

Work taught me that having a pleasant facial expression can change people's impression of you. In a way, it's true. But I'm tired of smiling when I'm not happy. 42 muscles to frown, 2 muscles to smile, but none to keep your face poker. Since primary school, people told me that I look fierce in my usual face. I'm a lazy guy, and I have weak facial muscles. I don't like changing my expression when it isn't natural, and I don't like moving my mouth. I'm tired of being aware of how my actions may change people's impression of me.

Well, enough random stuff. Final words: fuck 2008, and 2009 ain't gonna be much better.