Firstly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! =)

It's the 2nd day of CNY already. Spent the whole afternoon visiting everyone's house (not everyone actually, only three). It's better than last year since 2 of my relatives (whole family) were at Australia at that time. Spent the whole night re-watching Claymore (actually I fell asleep halfway, my sister finished it) and that's basically the whole day ._. Oh yeah, some of my cousins (some = 12) should still be watching Ah Long Pte Ltd right now. Wanted to join them but got too lazy and I might fall asleep halfway =X

There was something I wanted to blog about but after thinking through the consequences and repercussions, I've decided against it =X So I shall sleep instead. No idea why I'm so sleepy =S

o.O 1 week since I've blogged. Paiseh to those who came and left disappointed, black out at home caused my modem to go haywire >.> Shan't go into boring details. It's been a while since I've last went without internet, so once again I've realised how well I have been using my time >.> To put it simply, I've been wasting my life away while on the internet xD But besides that not-so-surprising realisation, I think I've gained more knowledge with regards to my own social circle, but I think I've known it for a long time, just that I refuse to acknowledge it. Oh, and the fortune inside my red packet today stated something quite interesting but uncannily enough, getting this fortune might be fate.

"The new year will be a good time for you to renew old acquaintances. Look out for someone you haven't seen in a while."

They say quarrels are needed for couples to understand each other better, but somehow during the process, the third party will suffer psychological damage. My mood is kinda ruined right now, and it's only 2 days to CNY.

Played tennis with Jun Jie and Hu Yuan after fac dance, and for a period of time, with Sherwyn. Not surprised at how suck my skills are, considering the number of times I've played in my life (you can count with your fingers!) But it's damn fun anyway xD

Somehow, I think the emo side of me has passed, which means less "thoughtful" posts and more boring day-to-day activities ^^

Today... nothing significant happened. Well there was the lecturing by our CT/GP tutor, but I couldn't really take notice of what she said, because I don't know where her negative sentiments are coming from, nor do I know the reason why she was lecturing us. If we don't see the purpose, then how can we take action?

Went to Donut Factory at Raffles City after with my ILP group to do research. And as I predicted, there was no point going ( besides buying half a dozen after queue-ing for less than 2min ). And Missy Donut marketing department is soooo helpful.

Me: Hi, we're students from Hwa Chong Institution College Section working on a project about the price movement of donuts. Would you mind if you answer a few questions to help us out with our project?

Person: Yes.

Wtf -.- And the number Donut Factory gave us was pretty useful too.

DF: Hi good afternoon -
*Me going to start speaking*
DF: Thank you for calling Donut Factory. For more information, please visit our website at www.donutfactory.com.sg.

-.- Well I guess something significant did happen today ^^

I'm cca-less. Whee. Didn't get through hip hop auditions. Kinda expected, seeing the number of zhai-kia taking part.

Jack of all trades, the master of none. Perfect description for me. Let's see...
I can play piano, but not as skilled or talented as Luther and Nicholas.
I can play guitar, but not as pro as Yew Wei and co.
I can play basketball, but not as pro as a lot of people.
I can do programming, but not as pro as a lot of people.
I THINK I can dance, but doesn't seem like it.
I can run, but not as fast as Jun Lin or many people.

On the other hand, there's a lot of things I can't do. For one, I can't talk to many people freely. If I continue listing them down, then I won't even be fit to be in 08zbk ._.

You don't have to say it, but you can say it anyway. I know I have an inferiority complex.

Lazy to blog about Senior-treat-Junior - You can read it at my class blog

Okay I just deleted my whole post ._. Too frustrating since I don't even know what I wanted to say, much less what I wanted to do.

Interesting talk today xD Strangely, much of what they said were echoes of what I was thinking some time ago. Maybe they kope from me ^^ But I have a feeling that after today's talk, some people are gonna have wrong interpretation of their feelings >.> But there's this quote from last time which I think is quite meaningful - Infatuation and Love begins the same way, but it's how you continue that matters.

Oh ya, for those who don't know, the talk is titled "

For some reason, I just feel like blogging >.< Maybe I'm just emo-ing too much and dumping all the feelings on this blog, making this seem to emo-ish =\ There's econs lecture test tomorrow but I can't mug anymore >.<

The invoice from Floraville came today. So TO ANYBODY WHO BELIEVED THAT I WOULD HAVE CHEATED YOUR MONEY, THIS IS YOUR GOD DAMNED PROOF. Okay, you'll have to ask me to show you in school 'cos I'm lazy to scan it xD

Feeling sad for those who cannot stay in hci after O's results are out, and also to those who didn't meet their expectations for HMTL. For me, it's above expectations xD Sometimes, you have to be realistic with your targets =]

Anyway, I kinda forgot what I was gonna emo about so too bad xD

Stayed in school until 6, even though I can't remember what we were doing >.< Let's see, teaching Han Yang to solve rubik's cube, playing cards ( oh crap 4 demerit points ) and stoning. It's interesting how we make use of our free time,

I really hope to pass hip hop auditions >.< Including 2nd round of course, but 1st round first =) Monday..... Chances are slim ( no not samuel lim) but it never hurts to hope right? Then if I dont get in, I'll break all the guys' legs so they can't join anymore muahahaha xD Okay I'm getting zi-high >.>

Wait, there's econs test tomorrow.

*Goes back to emo self*

Nah, econs test doesn't matter =) What matters is that the fun people in my CT can continue here. One from my class didn't do well enough, but there's always a chance to appeal through right?

No matter how long it rains, the sun will eventually shine.

Going into JC is enriching in a way. It opens up your eyes to the truth on what has been blind to you before. For example, the number of close friends you actually have.

If

Sorry guys, hate it to break it to you, but if does not exist in reality. It's only a figment of your own imagination, thinking that you're something that you're not. "If I started mugging as early as *name*, my results confirm better". Yes, IF you had, but reality is, you hadn't and you probably couldn't. Some people are hardworking by nature, and it shows how self-disciplined they are. You think you can be one of them? Prove it. People delude themselves into thinking that they are better than others, when in reality, it's just them trying to find excuses and making themselves feel better.

Today is a very... sadded day. Okay it only started very badly, but I laughed it off anyway. So what happened is that I woke up at 6.30, got ready by 6.45 and waited for a taxi...and waited...and waited...until 7.10am -.- By the time I reached school it's already 7.35. David caught me, or Mr Woon formally (sounds like I'm calling myself =\). So in the end, I got slapped with 1 temp demerit point AND wasted 13 bucks ( the taxi driver was kind enough to waive off the 70 cents). But seriously, more than 1 taxi driver (2 actually) drove past me even after ( and continued) to flag -.-

I don't know why I'm feeling so laid back, I've got Maths tutorial tomorrow and I still got half of tutorial 3 and whole of tutorial 4 undone >.>

Dramafest auditions tomorrow, Stanley's gonna have 1 hour break tomorrow =\ I wonder who's the wise guy who ticked everybody's name for cast auditions -.-

Hip hop auditions on Wednesday! Last time I checked, 105 applicants. Number of people to get through 1st auditions? 30. Carlos said the dance will be harder than fac dance, wondering how much harder =\ Only 30min to learn the choreograph, memorising dance steps quickly is not one of my forte >.< Damn scared I can't get in, cause I'm not really interested in other CCA besides guitar ensemble and I missed ge fang auditions. And it just happens that guitar interview is on Wed too. Kage Bunshin no Jutsu!

Today's OG Outing turn-up rate is below expectations, but I guess all of us had fun at one point or another. I was stoning more than usual for some reason but I'm really trying to change >.>

Someone's wake is going on just below my block. Kinda reminds me of my grandfather's but since I'm not that close to him, it doesn't stir up much emotions. But it makes me sad, just thinking that someone I know has passed away =\

Nothing to crap about so I'll just sign off here. And next, Maths tutorial...zzz..

Many times I've read about people bitching about their lives or how confused they are in their blogs, but when you try to be caring and get them to talk to you, it's often too late. It sucks, isn't it? There's so many reasons for that refusal, may it be that they already got over it, they don't trust you enough or they just want to keep to themselves. No matter what the reasons are, I think the one reading will keep feeling worried for the person. Isn't that a bit selfish of the blogger? You bitch around maybe because you want someone to feel concerned about you, but in the end you choose not to tell anyone about it and the people around you feel rejected or that you don't trust them enough. Then if no one talks to you about it, you feel that no one in your world cares about you. Isn't that ironic?

Okay, enough crapping. I only wrote that because being the one reading the post, there's the quandary between trying to reach out or just forget the whole issue. When you get rejected so many times after trying to reach out and show your concern for the person, there's always a lingering thought on whether it is worth it or not. But on that note, I believe that even if your concerns get rejected for 99 times but on the 100th time, someone chooses to believe in you, then it's still worth it. Shucks, I've just solved my own 'problem' -.-

At home right now, since I've ponned school xD Then called my manager to apologize to him because even though there's an extreme shortage of workers, I doubt he'll want someone coughing and sneezing while serving the customers >.>

Oh ya, did I mention I'm quiting? I actually feel quite bad about it though, but to regain something, sometimes you need to forsake something else. I didn't realise it at first, that I've forgotten something really important in my life while working in the holidays. And the initial decision to continue working after school starts is also due to forgetting about that aspect of my life. I guess it's only until last Saturday when some friends came to find me that I actually realized my loss. But today, I wonder again whether it'll come back.

They say "Old friends are gold, New friends are silver." But our lives are everchanging, and the changes in environment makes one wonder whether old friends will always continue to be gold, and whether new friends will turn to gold. Somehow, you try to keep old friends as gold and new friends as silver, yet some other people rather let new friends turn to gold, and the old friends...well I dunno. Yet in this situation, you treat your old friends as gold, while they treat you indifferently, and you and your new friends treat one another as silver, so in the end, you're left with no gold.

"I wanted to be alone, yet hoped for someone to find me. But if someone had, then I couldn't have found myself."

I remember we took a MI personality test in sec 1, and my "strongest" trait is intra-personal. 4 years later, it still stands. Did some soul-searching ( or emo-ing) today, and I understood more about my feelings. In a way, it's good. I had some misunderstood feelings. Actually not misunderstood, but I just can't find the right word. But the situation is strangely similar to 7 years ago. Have I not matured in thinking since then? Maybe I have, since I realised it before it was too late, which in a way, is good I guess?

On the other hand, I guess my inter-personal trait still sucks as bad as ever.

Orientation has ended. After this week, it'll be lectures and tutorials or whatever. Somehow, the past 1 n half weeks feel more like a dream to me. All the fun and excitement just don't feel realistic anymore. Yet, it's there. It happened before. The last 1 n half weeks is reality. And what is the proof of that?

OG'16 (=

Oh and I've just made a new resolution for myself. Actually, I made it this morning but whatever. I had too many regrets due to my own personal flaws. So from now on, it's no more regrets xD

Do you want to live a life filled with regrets, or do you want to create moments you'll never forget?

Hate is a very strong word, so I shall try not to use it.

I have an extremely strong dislike for my CT.
I have an extremely strong dislike for the office not to accept anymore changes to the classes.
And I hate the way I'm feeling right now.

Even though I considered changing my classes before today, I wanted to just experience one day, in case I'm wrong.

But I'm not. and unfortunately the general office decided to stop allowing changes this morning. I cannot stand breathing the same air as my CT before the day even ended. I just had to get away from them.

OG-sick? Maybe. This orientation is probably the best I'll have in my whole life, and the oh-so-sudden changes to the atmosphere is simply something I can't take. Looking through the photos I took of my OG yesterday isn't helpful.

Okay, I'm going back to emo. My only wish now is to lose this feeling after I wake up tomorrow. There is always a chance that tomorrow is better than today.

From All Walks of Life

Today I just saw another family with 2 kids, and they have 2 maids, each attending to one of them. Somehow it just makes me wonder who really are the parents. And these are the kind of people who complain that their kids don't spend enough time at home during their teenage years? Seriously -.-

Then there was another group, all ladies. One of them brought her baby....along with her maid >.>. So the maid took care of the baby while the rest were chatting happily away. What kind of mother is she?

There's also a customer who complained of our poor service because she was waiting impatiently for her chicken cordon bleu (we did mention that it'll take a longer time) while another customer wanted to tip us personally for excellent service (but my area manager refused). So, how good are we really?

Also, I actually realised the kind of environment I study in. Being in this environment for too long, it makes one lose sight of how different people can be. For example, most people from my ex-class just study 2-4 days before tests to get good grades. But there are also people who have to revise continually to get average grades. On this part, I think I spoke irresponsibly and inconsiderably while chatting with my new colleague >.<

Orientation

It's ALMOST a blast. My OG is pretty mixed - with some quiet ones(even more than me) and some very um..outspoken?(aka loud) people. The dance sessions were pretty fun, could have been a lot better if there's more space(blocked by the platform in the middle >.< ) and games...just felt that today's not as fun as yesterday =\ I've tried to know more people from my OG, but definitely ain't helped by my sore throat >.> There's only 2 days left before we're split into our CTs so gotta really make good use of it.

New Year

It's 2008. Well, happy new year? The thought which keeps going through my mind: "So what?". It's the same when we were watching fireworks. So many people were excited and howling here and there, but I still don't get it. Watching fireworks doesn't give me that grand feeling, and same goes to new year. So what if it's 2008 now? Life still goes on.

Work

Happy New Year, but not happy new year's eve =\ Today's crowd is crazy, and I don't even know where to start from. The earnings is twice of the usual Saturday >.> We have 5 people outside serving the customers and there was still not enough of us. Then there's some customers who are frigging picky, I would have just told them to f* off.

By the way, if you don't know why it's so particularly busy, just imagine where the countdown party is held at. Then where will be the next best place to watch the fireworks. And it just happens that we're located near that area =\Best thing yet, we're not going to be paid extra for today's work, which makes our work soooo rewarding. And yes, wef 1st Jan 2008, Staff meal is no longer provided. Just think, f&b outlet no providing meals? Get a life.